It's Thursday, so here I am over at Mr. Ointy. I was very diligent this week, and so I expected (hoped) to see a loss this time. I was flabbergasted to see that I had (supposedly, since I still have a hard time believing this) lost 7.4 pounds. In one week? I don't even think so. What the hell? This brings my loss to (supposedly) 14 pounds exactly. This is more than I lost in the first five weeks combined.

I am trying to figure out where the glitch is here. Had I lost some of this before and was retaining water last week? Is it a temporary aberration and next week I will have re-gained four of those pounds? I don't know. I guess all I can do is be equally diligent this week and see what happens at the end of it.

I've had a really bad couple of days, capped off with a tragedy of a haircut that seriously makes me want to wear a paper bag over my head for the next six weeks or so until it grows back. (Maybe the fact that they cut off all my hair explains the loss. Does hair weigh 7 pounds?) This is the only bright spot in my life right now, except that it's totally too good to be true.

Go me?


- posted by mo @ 12:18 AM

 
Of course, right when I get a day off, everything goes wrong. My car breaks down and has to go into the shop, and I get sick. So now I am at home, sick, without the energy to go out and get food (since I would have to walk or take my bike). I am reduced to eating whatever yogurt remains in my fridge.

I got a call from my doctor today and she said my cholesterol is high. (Other than that, I am healthy.) I am surprised that my cholesterol is so high considering that I do get regular exercise, avoid red meat, and all that. But I guess I don't eat enough fiber. What has a lot of fiber in it? I am going to have to look into that.

Anyway, I need to go try and see what I can do about fetching food before I crawl back into bed and sleep. If only I had my car, I could go rent movies. (At least I still had Donnie Darko on loan; I watched that.) So to sum up: waah waah.

And no, this doesn't have a tremendous lot to do with food, but I don't have the energy to update my actual journal. Think of it as a bonus! Bonus whining from me to you.
- posted by mo @ 4:48 PM

 
I am newly revitalized and have been in banking-points (meaning eating below the max so I can "save" the points) mode for three days now. I brought a snack to work and resisted the urge to eat a scone. Fucking raspberry-almond scones, so delicious, but 11 points. They are 500 calories and 20 grams of fat. That is not normal. Those are not even our highest calorie scones! Stupid Starbucks.

So today I did the whole tape measure thing, which you're supposed to do every month. If I did it right, I have apparently lost 8 inches from various parts of my body. That is a lot! I don't know if that's accurate, but I definitely feel a difference. I don't know if this will make sense, but if I put my hand on my collarbone, I can feel the bone a lot more clearly. Definitely less fat there-- weird place to lose fat. Also my neck is thinner. And I continue to notice it in my hips and thighs a lot-- those bike-riding muscles are beginning to emerge.

I absolutely need to start lifting weights. The most flabby part of my body is my upper arms, and I hate that, because I love tank tops and want to wear them all the time. I just can't do it, with the flab. I can't inflict the flab on the world.
- posted by mo @ 1:01 AM

 
Well it's Thursday, which means my WW meeting day. I always have the most to say on Thursday. Most importantly, I lost .4 pounds. That brings me to a total of 6.6 pounds lost, which is clearly not as much as I'd have hoped, but once again I was convinced I had gained over the past two (missed last week due to my poetry performance) weeks.

I am glad I stayed for the meeting, because we talked about empowering believes, changing "I can't" statements into "I can" statements. Cheesy, but there you have it. I was writing down my "I can't" and "I can" statements, such as: "I can exercise on a regular basis" (I've been doing so for well over a year) or "I can't resist the food and drink at work." That's a toughie because I love coffee, and I (now) love scones, and I go to work hungry and it's free and good and I get in trouble.

I changed that "I can't" into several "I can" statements. For instance, "I can bring snacks to work" and "I can limit my coffee drinking to break times only" and "I can stuff my mouth full of cotton balls so that no food fits inside." Maybe not that last thing, but there are solutions to these issues, and workarounds. I remember being able to resist everything at work for that month that I eschewed sugar. (Although I did have honey, and butter croissants with honey are "sugar" free, but high point.)

So my goals for this week are to journal every single day and to work on the problem of eating while at work. I am also planning to have a good week in terms of staying within points, getting my exercise (went for a great ride yesterday) and getting, finally, at last, back on track. (Oh, Janis has just hit the 40 pounds lost mark. Another 4 pounds this week. It is just melting away from her. It's hard not to envy her self-control or whatever the hell secret trick she's doing.)
- posted by mo @ 7:09 PM

 
While I was at work tonight (getting ready to go) someone brought in a pizza, so I had a slice. One of my co-workers was all, "Hey, aren't you doing that Weight Watchers thing? How many points is in that?" I got pissed, man. The fucking diet police? What the hell is that? I actually pulled out my points book (I am not proud of this) and demonstrated that I was still under my points for the day. I then told him to fuck off, which felt nice.

Maybe I feel guilty because I shouldn't have had pizza, but fuck it. For dinner I had steamed broccoli, which I've been craving like mad for some reason. I know it's an awfully healthy thing to crave, but I've had it the past three nights for dinner. Steamed broccoli. It's worrisome. Anyway, I somehow manage to balance it with enough crap to keep going over my points. I am glad for the meeting on Thursday; I hope it will be grounding.

I notice that I feel a lot more out of control when I don't bike ride. I need to make time for that, better than I have been-- especially now that Britney is all fixed.
- posted by mo @ 11:52 PM

 
I finally got my bike seat fixed today! I probably had enough time to squeeze in a ride, but I have terrific cramps today, and I couldn't bring myself to uncurl from the fetal position and get on a bike. Currently, I am waiting for the blessed Advil to kick in.

I love my bike shop (Alameda Bicycle) so much. I can't believe I can just walk in there, ask them to fix my bike seat, and they'll fix it and won't charge me a penny. I am always surprised, every single time. "No? I don't have to pay you? Not this time? Not ever?" Where else do you get that kind of service?

Anyway, I am counting oints again today. I've been counting them in my head recently, and I am pretty sure I've been going over or at least being near the top of the range. Possibly PMS is the explanation for that, since I am no longer feeling the need to eat all the chocolate in the world. I do want a Caramel Macchiato pretty badly, however. I hope that's not too many oints.
- posted by mo @ 2:53 PM

 
I don't want to let Mr. Ointy languish, for those of you who are checking in. I have been making middling progress. Not bad, not great. I guess I am more stressed out than I thought! I am plugging away and hope to find my mojo soon.
- posted by mo @ 12:30 AM

 
I forgot to add, in other body-related news, I made an appointment for a massage tomorrow. I am so excited, I feel like I've been a ball of tension for, well, possibly years now and I have never had a professional massage! I told my masseuse that I wanted to be rendered floppy. She is going to do some weird Hawaiian thing that she said will make me floppy. I CANNOT WAIT.
- posted by mo @ 10:50 PM

 
I drank the beer. But I had some seared ahi on a salad for the entree, which was much better than the other things I was eyeing.

Anyway, I went for my weigh-in tonight (Thursday, and all) and I lost 1.4 pounds! I was so convinced I was going to gain. I am now convinced that this was the loss from last week, plus all the badness of this week. (In other words, if I had stayed on program, I would have seen a bigger loss.) So I'm probably going to gain next week, even if I am angelic about my points-- because my body is on a one-week lag.

Either way, I am so happy that I didn't gain this week, and I am going to go back on the program full-force tomorrow. Thank you for the reprieve, universe. That's 6.2 pounds so far!
- posted by mo @ 10:25 PM

 
I'm feeling more motivated today-- it's gorgeous and I went for a ride, which helped. Tonight is the company party at the local brewery, but I think I'll just follow Janis' lead, since she's the one who's doing so well. Maybe a salad, that's always a safe choice, yes? I guess I'll skip the beer.
- posted by mo @ 5:18 PM

 
I'm pretty sure I've been under points the past two days, but my heart is completely not in it.

I have to learn not to let my emotional state dictate my eating habits. A little bit of turmoil and it's all over? No. No. There's always tomorrow.
- posted by mo @ 12:48 AM

 
I ate whatever I wanted all weekend (oh, that risotto last night...) and it was delicious. today I find myself ravenously hungry, but I am giong to stick to salads and other healthful choices. My goal for next week is to maintain, baby. And get back on track.

(I can't bring myself to regret the risotto, however. Or that chocolate raspberry thing. Hey, I split it with someone, so that's half the calories! 50% less fat!)
- posted by mo @ 1:01 PM

 
Erin says: When you want food -- junky, fatty, salty, substantive food -- there is no Celestial Seasoning Tea that you can dunk in boiling hot water and be a surrogate for an order of cheese fries. There just isn't. And anyone who looks at you with a straight face and a pair of size 8 jeans and says otherwise is an asshole.
- posted by mo @ 12:56 PM